The World Grows Blackthorn Walls

14 May, 2021


Painting by Kehinde Wiley,

Paint­ing by Kehinde Wiley, “Mrs. Sid­dons” with a black­thorn back­ground inspired by William Mor­ris (cour­tesy artist Kehinde Wiley).

a poem by Sholeh Wolpé

 

Tall, stiff and spiny,
try to make it to the oth­er side
and risk sav­age thorns. 

We who left home in our teens, 
chil­dren who crossed bound­aries and were torn
by its thou­sand ser­rat­ed tongues, we
who bear scars that bloom and bloom
beneath healed skins, 
who have we become? 

I ask myself:
is home my ghost?
Does it wear my under­wear
fold­ed neat­ly in the antique chest
of draw­ers I bought twen­ty years ago,
nest inside my blouse that hangs
from one met­al hang­er I’ve been mean­ing to dis­card?
Is it lost between these lines of books
shelved alpha­bet­i­cal in a lan­guage 
I was not born to? Or here on the lip
of this chipped cup left behind
by my lover long gone? 

I car­ry seeds in my mouth. Plant 
turmer­ic, car­damom, and tiny 
aro­mat­ic cucum­bers in this gar­den. 
Water them with rain I wring
from my grand­moth­er’s songs.  
They will grow, I know, against these black­thorn walls. 
They can push through any­thing, uncut. 

I left home at thir­teen. 
I had­n’t lived enough to know how
not to love.  
Home was the Caspi­an Sea, the busy bazaars, 
the aro­ma of kebab and rice, Fri­day  
lunch­es, pic­nics by moun­tain streams. 
I nev­er meant to stay away. 

They said come back
and you will die. 

Exile is a suit­case with a bro­ken strap.
I fill up a hun­dred note­books with scrib­bles,                                                                   
throw them into fire and begin to write again, 
this time tat­too­ing the words on my fore­head,
this time writ­ing only not to forget. 

Com­pla­cen­cy is com­mu­ni­ca­ble like the com­mon cold.  
I swim upstream to lay my pur­ple eggs. 

They say draw sus­te­nance from this land,
but look how my fruits hang in spi­rals
and smell of old note­books and lace. 

What is a trans­plant­ed tree 
but a time being 
who has adapt­ed to adoption? 

Spir­its urge and spir­its go,
but I speak only to the future. 
Per­haps it’s only in exile that spir­its arrive.  
They weep and wail at the door of the tem­ple 
where I sit at the edge of an abyss.  

But even this is an illusion. 

 

 From Aba­cus of Loss, forth­com­ing from the Uni­ver­si­ty of Arkansas Press, March 2022. 

Sholeh Wolpé—(Poetry Editor) Sholeh Wolpé was born in Iran and lived in Trinidad and the UK before settling in the US. She is a poet, playwright and librettist. Her most recent book, Abacus of Loss: A Memoir in Verse (March 2022) is hailed by Ilya Kaminsky as a book “that created its own genre—a thrill of lyric combined with the narrative spell.” Her literary work includes a dozen books, several plays, an oratorio/opera, and several  multi-genre performance pieces. Her translations of Attar and Forugh Farrokhzad have garnered awards and established Sholeh Wolpé as a celebrated re-creator of Persian poetry into English. Recently she was the subject of a Metropolitan Museum of Art Spotlight, The Long Journey Home. Presently a writer-in-residence at UCI, she divides her time between Los Angeles and Barcelona. For more information about her work visit her website. You’ll also find her on FacebookYouTube and Instagram.

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