{"id":33501,"date":"2024-07-05T10:07:16","date_gmt":"2024-07-05T08:07:16","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/themarkaz.org\/oldmarkaz\/?p=33501"},"modified":"2024-07-05T10:07:16","modified_gmt":"2024-07-05T08:07:16","slug":"the-lakshmi-of-suburbia-a-story-by-natasha-tynes","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/themarkaz.org\/oldmarkaz\/the-lakshmi-of-suburbia-a-story-by-natasha-tynes\/","title":{"rendered":"&#8220;The Lakshmi of Suburbia&#8221;\u2014a story by Natasha Tynes"},"content":{"rendered":"<h5><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Can an internet influencer save a failing marriage?<\/span><\/h5>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<h4><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Natasha Tynes<\/span><\/h4>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou let yourself go.\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani couldn\u2019t escape the thought. Was it really her fault? Did she intentionally neglect herself? Or was it just middle age creeping in?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Did the mix of motherhood and suburban banality forever tarnish her? Making her appear unattractive, a mom, undesirable, a human walking this earth with the sole purpose of raising and nurturing her sole child?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She was in bed, aimlessly scrolling Instagram, while Elias, her husband of more than five years, was sleeping in their son\u2019s room.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">It started with him telling her he needed Rami, their three-year-old, to sleep, and it would be better if he were in his room.<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> He told her that she had seemed exhausted and that he wanted to help. She loved that about him.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">One year later, Elias was still sleeping in Rami\u2019s room.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou let yourself go,\u201d\u00a0her sister, who lived in California, told her over FaceTime.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She had called her earlier that day to chit-chat, and then she confessed when her sister suggested some home redesign tips.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOur sleeping situation is a bit complicated. Elias has been sleeping in\u00a0Rami\u2019s room for a few months.\u201d<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She lied. She didn\u2019t want to say it had been over a year since they had shared a bed, a year since he had touched her.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She could see the horrified look of her sister Shireen on her iPhone screen when she told her.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Shireen tilted her back and raised her eyebrows.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cDid you say three months? Three whole months?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWell, you know, Rami has always been a bad sleeper, and Elias is just trying to help me put him to sleep. Nothing serious.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou know he\u2019s sleeping around, don\u2019t you?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani felt a lump in her throat.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat? What are you talking about? Elias? Of course not!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cA man can\u2019t be without a woman for that long.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Her sister and she had never said the word \u201csex\u201d out loud to each other. It was just not proper, even among sisters; instead, they danced around it and replaced it with words like\u00a0 \u201csleep\u201d and \u201cbed.\u201d<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIt\u2019s not like that,\u201d Amani lied. Of course, it <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">was<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> about that. He had not touched her for way too long.<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani could hear her sister making a <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">tsk<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> sound. \u201cI can\u2019t believe you still don\u2019t understand men. You have been married for how long now? Five years? You\u2019re so naive.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWe\u2019re both working hard and tired all the time, and Rami has these massive temper tantrums. Elias and I love each other.\u201d Another lie.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cListen habibti, a man is a man. If he\u2019s not near you, he\u2019s getting it elsewhere. You have to do something about it.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou\u2019re being overdramatic. All these Turkish soap operas you have been watching have messed with your head.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOh, please, spare me your wisdom. This happens when women ignore themselves.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani shook her head. \u201cWhat do you mean?\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Her sister rolled her eyes. \u201cDo I have to spell it out?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYes, say it,\u201d Amani demanded.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou let yourself go\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cLook at you \u2014 messy hair. No makeup. You\u2019re not even wearing earrings.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani shook her head. \u201cI\u2019m home. Do you want me to wear earrings around the house?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cHabibti, a man wants his woman pretty all the time, house or no house. That\u2019s why God created women from the rib of men. We were created to please them.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI can\u2019t believe you have been in the U.S. for years, and you still think this way,\u201d Amani responded. \u201cYou\u2019re turning into our grandmother.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cSeriously, you think men change across oceans? Don\u2019t be stupid, sister.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani kept scrolling Instagram aimlessly, hoping to forget what Shireen had told her: that she had only herself to blame, that her husband\u2019s aversion to her was a fault of her own, and that if she lost him, it was all on her.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani looked at Instagram reels of moms dancing and making light of their tiring lives with their toddlers. She saw videos of first-generation Arab immigrants making fun of their parents who were trying hard to assimilate into American culture.\u00a0She scrolled and scrolled until she found<\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> her<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">. Mira Lakshmi. She wore a black bikini and a white shirt loosely draped over her shoulders. Her hair was styled casually, with stray strands framing her face. Her arms were placed above her head as she looked away from the camera.\u00a0Amani looked at Mira\u2019s smooth olive skin. Every curve and line of her body was a harmonious blend of femininity and strength. Her posture radiated femininity \u2014 beauty in all its forms.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">How old is this woman? <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00a0Isn\u2019t she a model? Wasn\u2019t she on that cooking show? Wasn\u2019t she married to a famous author?<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00a0She switched to Google.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Mira Lakshmi is 53 years old. Damn!<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">How did she manage to look that good at her age?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">According to Google, Lakshmi, who was born in a small Indian village and had made it to the U.S. as an international model, was divorced with one child. How come she didn\u2019t let herself go?\u00a0 Was it merely the magic work of Photoshop, or maybe plastic surgery and a very expensive 24\/7 personal trainer?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Maybe she is taking some of these weight loss medicines, Ozempic or Wegovy or whatever.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani scrolled through Mira Lakshmi\u2019s Instagram feed.\u00a0There she was, leaning by a stovetop, wearing a strapless black top while stirring some vegetables in a wok.\u00a0There was another one of her with her daughter by the pool. Another one showed her standing upside down, doing some sort of complicated yoga pose. One that Amani would never have the courage to try. Not now, not ever.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Damn!<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Fifty-three years, really?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani had a hard time sleeping that night, tossing and turning. Would she ever be as fit and beautiful as that Lakshmi woman? Or has her ship already sailed at 40?<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Is it even possible to look like that in your fifties? Was it all AI-generated?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani eventually got out of bed, went downstairs to the kitchen, and grabbed a glass of water. The house was eerily silent. She wished Elias was sleeping next to her. Maybe he would have comforted her while she couldn\u2019t sleep. She missed when she used to sleep on his chest all night. What happened to her?\u00a0Why did she allow herself to disintegrate? A suburban mom with no touch of makeup, wandering around in flip flops, baggy pants, circles under her eyes, unkempt hair, shoulders hunched, back hunched, a belly protruding, fat muscles sagging from her shoulders. Has she allowed herself to be too sucked into the American suburbia where women go to Target in their PJs?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Has she let herself go to the point of no return?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She woke up groggy the following day. She quietly opened Rami\u2019s room. Elias and Rami were both sound asleep next to each other. She smiled. They both looked so cute, so innocent when they were sleeping. She had an hour to get ready for work before they woke up. She walked to the kitchen and ran the coffee machine. While the coffee was brewing, she opened Instagram and looked at Mira Lakshmi\u2019s page.\u00a0She observed her jewelry: silver dangly earrings and a long bohemian-looking necklace composed of a series of round beads, alternating in teal and coral, strung together on a dark cord with a silver oval pendant.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She switched to Amazon, searched for a \u201cbohemian necklace,\u201d\u00a0and browsed until she found what she was looking for.<\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> Close enough. <\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The difference was that the pendant on Amazon was crescent-shaped, and the beads were different colors.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She ordered it. Next-day delivery.\u00a0She smiled.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The land of instant satisfaction never disappoints.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Over the following days, Amani embarked on a shopping spree, looking for one item after the other \u2014 items that would make her look less of a mom and more of a woman, more like Mira Lakshmi.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Her next plan of action was changing her body. She needed to eat less and exercise. Maybe she could start by walking. A stroll around the block during her lunch break. It was just too hot outside. July in DC was hell. She missed Jordan\u2019s summers, which were much nicer and milder, with no humidity and crisp evenings.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She looked for the closest gym to her office so that she could go during her lunch break, or maybe early in the morning. She worked as a program assistant at an international development agency. The job was boring most of the time. It entailed emailing this and emailing that. Helping with proposals, and responding to anyone from the Middle East who preferred to speak Arabic over English.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She located a gym within walking distance of her office. She would start with classes, something fun, like Zumba or aerobics. Running or lifting weights were not for her \u2014 not yet.<\/span><\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani\u2019s daily routine took a new form. She would wake up earlier than usual, prepare Rami\u2019s lunch for daycare, and then drive to the metro station to take the train to her office in downtown DC, carrying both her gym bag and work purse.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She would arrive at the office at 7:30 a.m. when no one was there, leave her stuff, change into her gym clothes, and walk to the gym near her office. Sometimes, she would go during lunch if there was a class she liked. By the time she got home, she would be too exhausted to do anything else.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAre you making dinner tonight?\u201d Elias texted her occasionally as she was on the metro on her way home.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cToo exhausted, I went to an evening class after work.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI see. I\u2019ll just get pizza.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She tightened her jaw. Pizza for the third night in a row! \u201cCan\u2019t you make dinner for a change?\u201d she texted back.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou know I\u2019m as exhausted as you are, and I need to pick up Rami. Not everything revolves around you, you know?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani reread his text. <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">When did he become so mean?<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Two months after embarking on her own hero\u2019s journey, Amani was being noticed \u2014 by her colleagues, her friends, and random people in the street.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">They looked at her,\u00a0<\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">really<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> looked at her, or maybe it was in her head. She didn\u2019t care.\u00a0She felt good and looked good. Even her gait had changed. More confident. Better posture.\u00a0When she talked to people,\u00a0she would stand up straight, pushing her shoulders back slightly and opening up her chest.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou lost weight!\u201d and \u201cYou look amazing,\u201d became sentences that people would say to her frequently.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Even her sister Shireen noticed.\u00a0\u201dI see it in your face. You lost weight,\u201d she told her over FaceTime.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI guess,\u201d said Amani.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cIs Elias back in the room?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cOh, yeah,\u201d she lied. \u201cIt was just a phase.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI told you. A man is a man. You just needed to look good again, and he would come back running.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Ah, Elias, what happened to you? What happened to us?<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani couldn\u2019t help but reminisce about a different time when he was drawn to her, or so she had thought.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Was he ever in love with me?<\/span><\/i><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">They met online on one of these dating apps. He was already in the U.S., working for an architectural firm in DC. He got the job right after college.\u00a0A friend referred him, and he was hired as a consultant; three years later, he got a job as a project manager.\u00a0He excelled, got promoted, and eventually landed a green card and an American wife. A marriage that lasted a few years before he realized that a solid life partner should be one of his own kind.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">When he returned to Jordan for a visit, he was determined to find a wife. He wanted a traditional life \u2014 scratch that, maybe not traditional, a practical one.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">He wanted a wife, a family, and a house in the suburbs, and the timing was right. He was of age and had a fancy job and a failed marriage behind him.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">When they first met on the app, they agreed to meet at a coffee shop on the outskirts of Amman, away from prying eyes.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani thought he was handsome. Tall, with hazel eyes, olive skin, and a black goatee, he wore dark-rimmed glasses. Elias was very successful and focused. He was a catch, especially for someone her age.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She was already 35 when they met, and she didn\u2019t think she had the privilege to be that selective. She knew she wouldn\u2019t fall in love with him in that crazy way, like in the books and movies, but she didn\u2019t care.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">He crossed all the boxes: a handsome, rich Jordanian Christian, a minority within a minority, just like her, and he provided an opportunity for her to live in America. What more did she want?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">What is this crazy love anyway? She kept reminding herself. It was just the work of fiction and poetry. It was just not meant to last; it was your hormones messing with your head. He was perfect.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">They got married a year later, and she moved to the U.S. with him six months afterwards, when her immigration papers were sorted out. They settled in the Maryland suburbs, ready to embark on their life. Amani couldn\u2019t be happier.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I can\u2019t find a better man.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She was a virgin when they got married, a fact that she didn\u2019t want to share with her American friends. What would they think of her? A 35-year-old virgin? A freak?<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">For Jordan, of course, you were expected to be a virgin at any age as long as you were not married.\u00a0You would be a pariah if you crossed that line and did the unthinkable.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani couldn\u2019t help but wonder sometimes how the definition of pariah could be reversed when you cross the Atlantic. A pariah if you were a virgin, and a pariah if you were not.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She wanted to make up for lost time, to discover herself with her new man, her first man, but she also wanted kids immediately, so she didn\u2019t even bother with taking the pill (It messes with your hormones anyway, or at least that was what she was told).<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">At first, they had a lot of sex. They tried, and they tried. They saw doctor after doctor, specialist after specialist until she finally got pregnant with Rami at 38. One child was all that she could give her husband. That was what was written in the books for her.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAt least you gave him a boy,\u201d her sister Shireen told her over the phone when she called her crying after she had resigned to the fact that Rami would be an only child.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani had always wondered if Elias was too exhausted from dealing with her infertility dramas, and that was what had turned him off. Maybe he secretly resented her for giving him only one child.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">At least I gave him a boy.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She exited the shower, <\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">steam still lingering in the air,<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> and grabbed the towel hanging by the tub. She still showered in the evenings. Five years in the U.S., she didn\u2019t have the habit of showering in the morning before work like most Americans do. The evening showers cleansed her of all the day\u2019s venoms. Relaxed her. As she dried herself, she looked at herself in the mirror above the sink. She liked what she saw.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Her face was thinner. She ran her fingers across it and felt how smooth it was from all the skincare regimens (a five-step daily routine).\u00a0She looked at her breasts and ran her hand across her belly. The Buddha bulge was still there but somehow was small and cute.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She looked good. She had made definite progress. Her efforts were not for naught.\u00a0As she kept staring, she slowly felt her jaw tighten, her hands clenched into fists as her nails dug into her palms.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">How could he keep ignoring me?\u00a0How could he ignore this?\u00a0<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She wrapped herself with the towel, stormed out of the bathroom, and headed to his office. He was working late to catch up on some work (or so he said), as Rami played on his iPad while seated in a beanbag in the middle of the room.<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> The faint smell of his cologne lingered in the air, the same scent that made her fall for him during the early days of their courtship.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She hated that room and avoided stepping in it as much as possible. It was supposed to be a guest room or a room for their second child, but that second child never came, and the guests hardly showed up.<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Now, this room is his man\u2019s cave, a single man\u2019s cave. Whenever he didn\u2019t want to interact with her, he would just go there and say he was working.\u00a0Besides a cheap desk from Amazon and a beanbag from IKEA, the place was pretty bare. Not a rug on the hardwood floor, and not even blinds on the window.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">He didn\u2019t want her to decorate it. He liked it the way he liked it.<\/span> <i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Manly<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She had no grounds to complain, she kept reminding herself. He had a job, a good job that paid for their expensive American suburban lifestyle; from a mortgage to a pool membership to yearly trips to Jordan to an expensive preschool and Whole Foods hauls. Yes, she made money, but it saved for her \u2014 her shopping sprees, and the occasional gifts here and there, from Father\u2019s Day to their anniversary to his birthday. She also used some money to support her family back in Jordan, and he never objected; he understood. Family was always a priority.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">He was a good man. He provided and more. She wouldn\u2019t find a better one.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">When she got to his office, he was staring at his computer screen, transfixed by what looked liked a video. Was he watching YouTube?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Is this what he\u2019s doing in this dump for an office? YouTube videos all day.<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She dropped her towel on the floor. Elias didn\u2019t notice.\u00a0<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201c<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Look at this,\u201d she said, running her finger up and down her naked body.\u00a0\u201cLook what you\u2019re missing.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Elias lifted his head up from his computer\u2019s screen as a look of terror formed on his face. He glanced at Rami, who was busily tapping on his iPad.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cPlease leave. I have to work. I have a deadline.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat deadline?\u201d she lashed out. \u201cThe YouTube academy deadline!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">He let out a sigh.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cPlease close the door behind you.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She stared out the window as she sat in a bus seat headed to New York.\u00a0With her thumb and index finger, she twirled the necklace dangling from her neck. It was <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">that<\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> necklace, the bohemian, colorful one, which reminded her of Mira\u2019s. It was the one that started the chain of events: from buying and beautifying, to going to the gym and counting calories, to dyeing her grey roots to look as good as her. Mira Lakshmi.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She felt her phone buzz in her palm. She picked it up and found a WhatsApp message from her sister in the family group. It was a picture of her daughter Lily dressed in a tutu. \u201cBallet recital about to begin,\u201d she wrote in Arabic.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani smiled and responded. \u201cSoooo cute,\u201d she typed back in English.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani thought about how wonderful it would have been if she had had a daughter.\u00a0She would dress her up.Take care of her, and even exchange makeup tips when she would become a teenager.\u00a0 She sighed. She was 41. Her dream of ever having a daughter was slim to zero.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She twirled the necklace and closed her eyes, thinking about the trip ahead.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She had researched the hell out of Mira Lakshmi. She knew Mira lived in Manhattan, somewhere around the Trump Tower building, and was occasionally spotted walking by or going to one of the Starbucks in the area. Sometimes, her teenage daughter would be with her, looking just as beautiful and elegant as her.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani didn\u2019t have a plan. She just wanted to see Mira Lakshmi to show her that she had inspired her to look good and become someone people would admire. That she had propelled her to put herself first, unlike what was exempted from her as a mom, as a wife.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She might say \u201chi\u201d and introduce herself. She might tell her she was an immigrant, a brown woman, just like her, and that seeing her massive success had inspired her.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She wanted to thank her for existing, for putting herself out there, for showing other brown, accented women that the world could embrace them, that America could put them on a pedestal, that the world would notice.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani meticulously selected her outfit that day. It mirrored one of Mira\u2019s in a <\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Vogue <\/span><\/i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">interview. It was a one-shoulder dress with a textured pattern in shades of red and orange. Over the dress, she draped a light-colored, cozy-looking shawl. She paired the outfit with knee-high brown boots and gold circular dangly earrings. Her long black hair was down, covering her bare shoulder. She made sure to apply some anti-frizz cream before she left because sometimes her hair would take on a mind of its own if she didn\u2019t tame it. She wanted it to look smooth and shiny, just like Mira\u2019s. Before leaving on her trip, she grabbed the bohemian necklace.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She had told Elias she was going to New York for the day. That her company was paying for her to take the fast train to attend a board meeting and help with the logistics. She told him she would be back a bit after midnight.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">He fussed when he realized he would have to leave early to pick up Rami.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou know I\u2019ll just pick up pizza. I won\u2019t have time to make dinner,\u201d he told her a few days earlier as they were both in the kitchen. She was stacking the dishwasher, and he was fumbling with the fridge ice machine.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThat\u2019s okay. Cheese, please. You know Rami doesn\u2019t like pepperoni.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Rami kept messing with the ice bucket, avoiding eye contact.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cYou know, I don\u2019t have a choice, right? It\u2019s work. It\u2019s not like I\u2019m going sightseeing,\u201d she said.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani didn\u2019t have to lie much to cover her tracks or even bring her laptop to make her alleged business trip believable. She knew Elias wouldn\u2019t care or even notice.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">He was deep into his head, thinking about his work and his son. The last thing on his mind was his marriage, his wife.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">It took Amani years to realize that Elias had already made his choice. He learned early on that he couldn\u2019t be a dad and a husband. That his male mind wouldn\u2019t be able to multitask. To do good jobs at both. He had to choose, so he chose Rami. He chose to be a dad above anything else. Husband be damned.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani looked at the empty seat next to her. She wished someone was sitting next to her. Maybe she would make a new friend, someone who would share her admiration of Mira Lakshmi.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She rubbed her forehead with her fingers and let out a heavy sigh.<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Maybe Elias is right. Maybe I am just selfish.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani\u2019s plan was to get off the bus at New York\u2019s Penn Station and then take an Uber to the Trump Tower on Fifth Avenue and walk around looking gorgeous, looking for any glimpse of Mira Lakshmi. She would stop by restaurants, nearby parks, and coffee shops and just wander and hope. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani let out a sigh and looked outside the window. They were now on the Jersey Turnpike, and they were getting close. She felt butterflies in her belly, like a teeanager in love, a feeling she had not had in a long time.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She wondered what Shireen would think of her. A mother abandoning her husband and her child to stalk a celebrity. Would her sister notice more changes in her when they meet at her house on Christmas in a few months?<\/span><\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani sat at a table at Starbucks near the Trump Tower in Manhattan, sipping a hot latte.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She didn\u2019t even like latte, but she had to order something while she sat there, gathering her thoughts and refining the plan she had already been working on for over a week. She had to look like she belonged there, in Manhattan. She wanted to look and feel like one of them, a New Yorker. Just the way Mira did, turning her life around, from growing up in a small Indian village to becoming a famous celebrity roaming the streets of New York City.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She pulled the notes app from her phone and looked at the sightings list of all the places Mira Lakshmi had been spotted.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">That very same Starbucks where Amani was sitting was one of them. She looked around, but there was no sight of her. She looked at the line of people waiting for the bathroom; Mira was not among them.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">It\u2019s okay. I\u2019ll find her somehow.\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She looked at the sightings list; there were two more Starbucks. There was also an Indian restaurant and an Italian restaurant, and a small park neighborhood across the street where Mira had been seen drinking a hot beverage and chatting with a friend. There was also a fancy shopping store and Central Park, where she had been photographed jogging. \u00a0There was also a French restaurant in Soho and a fancy hotel in Greenwich Village.\u00a0Amani sipped her coffee and decided to go to the closest spot next. The Italian restaurant. It was already lunchtime, and she was starving. She thought about what to order.\u00a0<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">T<\/span><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">he cheapest thing on the menu. Maybe just plain pasta. Or you know fuck it, I will pamper myself. I\u2019ll order what the hell I want to. I might even get some wine while I sit and wait for her.\u00a0<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She stayed at the Italian place for over an hour. She drank two glasses of wine with her spaghetti Bolognese as she looked around, hoping to catch a glimpse of Mira.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She felt tipsy and full, so she decided to take a stroll in Central Park. It was October, and the weather couldn\u2019t have been better. She put on her AirPods and started walking around the park.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She wanted something to set the mood, so she picked her Fairuz playlist on Spotify. She took a deep breath then started walking. She looked around: bikers, children, lovers holding hands, homeless, lonely women, lonely men, women walking dogs, men walking dogs.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She wondered about all these people walking in a park in the middle of the day in Manhattan. Don\u2019t they have jobs? Do they all have trust funds, or maybe they were living off their early retirement savings? Did their partners ignore them? When was the last time they had sex or felt a warm body sleeping next to them in bed?<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She walked and looked and thought until she needed a break. Her phone buzzed. A phone call from Elias. She didn\u2019t pick up. She didn\u2019t want him to ruin her mood. <\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">He was probably calling to complain about the charges on the joint credit card. All these Amazon purchases. The jewelry, the clothes.\u00a0 She should just create a separate Amazon account to spare herself the headache.<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She got out of the park and decided on her next stop. This time, she would be going to an Indian restaurant where Mira had been spotted twice. She would get a desert. She read somewhere that many celebrities like Mira pick weird times in the day to go to restaurants so that they won\u2019t be spotted. Maybe Mira will be there sipping mango lassi.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">When Amani got in the cab, there was another missed call from Elias.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><i><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">What if she was out of town, and I was wasting my time here looking for her? No, No, you have to think positively. Manifest and all of that. This is how things happen.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani was greeted by a wildly smiling young Indian waiter who showed her to her table. She was already feeling exhausted. She ordered a mango lassi and looked around. No sighting of her. She put on her AirPods and scrolled to Instagram. One reel after the other. She checked Mira\u2019s Instagram page to see if she had missed any new updates. Nothing. She hadn\u2019t posted in days. Maybe she was indeed out of town.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Her phone buzzed, and two words texted from Elias. \u201cPick up.\u201d<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She took a deep breath and called him back.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cHey,\u201d he said, she could hear Rami crying in the background.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat\u2019s going on? Why isn\u2019t Rami at preschool?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Rami\u2019s cries became stronger.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThere\u2019s been an accident,\u201d he said.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat? I can\u2019t hear you? Why is Rami crying that much?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani got out of her chair and walked to the restaurant\u2019s bathroom.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cAn accident,\u201d repeated Elias.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhatWhat accident?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThe preschool called. Rami fell off<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">the seesaw. His face came down on a branch. He will need stitches around his eyes, and they are worried he might have scratched his cornea.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat?\u201d Amani felt her heart drop. \u201cWhat are you saying?\u201d\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019m saying your son is injured, Amani.\u00a0We\u2019re at the emergency room. They just finished the stitches, but we\u2019re waiting for the specialist to assess his eye injury.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani felt acid move up to her throat. \u201cHe\u2019s going to heal, right?\u00a0He\u2019s going to be all right, yes?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThe first doctor thinks so, but they need to make sure that the scratch won\u2019t cause vision loss, so we\u2019re waiting for a test.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani could feel her hands trembling.<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\"> \u201c<\/span><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">How\u2019s he doing? Can I talk to him?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI don\u2019t think it\u2019s a good idea now. They promised him some popsicles, so he\u2019s looking forward to that, but he is in pain.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019m coming home,\u201d she said.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhen?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cNow. I will take the next train.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cWhat about your board meeting? Are you done?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cThey\u2019ll understand.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI got it handled here,\u201d said Elias.\u00a0\u201cI just wanted to tell you.\u00a0We\u2019ll see you tonight. You don\u2019t need to rush. We are just waiting here for more tests. He\u2019ll be okay.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">\u201cI\u2019m not waiting. I\u2019m coming home now.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Amani picked up her things and ran outside. She didn\u2019t know where she was running to. She had to go back to the station. Maybe she would find a cab to take her there and just wait at the station. Or perhaps she would find a ticket online.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She was scheduled to leave at 20:00, and get back in Maryland by midnight. It was already 17:00. Was there even a bus before eight? Maybe she would pay double for the fast train.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She ran, the expensive black purse she had brought dangling on her shoulder.<\/span> <span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She saw an empty yellow cab. She hailed it and saw it slowly pull up to the curb where she was standing.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She spotted a trash can on the corner as she was about to get in the cab. She let out a sigh and forcefully pulled off her necklace, breaking its clasp.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She threw it in the trash.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><em><span style=\"font-weight: 400; font-size: 14px;\">Natasha Tynes is currently working on her second novel.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>In Natasha Tynes\u2019 new short story, \u201cThe Lakshmi of Suburbia,\u201d an unhappy wife falls in love with herself and an internet 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